I thought I could never do it
I tried all kinds of slimming programs, from Atkins diet, liquid diet, juice diet, food combining diet, southbeach diet, etc etc.. All worked for awhile and I would definitely come back to my eating spree. I just couldn't do those diet for more than two weeks, some even for a few days..
So when I had to fast for the first time.. I knew I could never do it, I knew I would never last more than a week, and I knew I would give up. I was terrified when fasting month was coming...
My muslim friends and relatives told me to recite the "niat" or "purpose" before I started fasting. They said it helped a lot.. I didnt believe them but since it's a requirement, I did it anyway. I recited my "niat" the night before the fasting month.
First day : morning was not so bad coz I was not a breakfast person. I skipped breakfast most of the time. But when the time hit 12.30 the hunger started to kick in. I tried to ignore it and surprisingly after half an hour the hunger dissappeared. Then thirst and headache came around 4pm. But since I was working and needed to finish up few things on that day, I didn't have time to entertain them. By the time I needed to leave the office at 5.30, time went so fast. I had to rush driving home and buying food. In no time at all I heard the adzan, the call for prayer.. the time to break the fast.
First thing I did was drinking a glass of cold water. It was the best tasting water I had ever tasted. I was amazed on how little I ate that day despite of not having breakfast and lunch. I broke my fast with 2 dates, popiah, porridge and a piece of kuih. I was stuffed.
The third and fourth days were the hardest. I guess the sugar reserve in my body dropped significantly. I was super tired. The hunger and thirst started knocking on my brain since 10 am. But again, since I was busy at the office, I didn't really have anytime to entertain them.
After the first week, everything was a breeze... In no time, I completed my first whole month of fasting.
For some people fasting teach them to be patient, to resist temptation, to feel how it is being poor without enough food and drink, to count the blessing, etc.
For me, my first fasting has taught me about perseverence.. about not giving up... about doing things that I never thought I would be able to do.
I guess what people say is true : when you keep your mind on something, you can do it. I never really believed in it until that first month of fasting.
Selamat berpuasa to my muslim friends...
For my friends of other religions : it is true that if you don't give up easily, you can do whatever it is that you set your mind into, even losing weight of 70 kg... Just look at the Biggest Loser on TV.. really inspiring. Although I had to admit, my determination on losing weight is probably in the state of crumbling.